The Host Chapter 27

Chapter 27- Undecided

Weird words:
Stymied

I'm going to be honest here. I don't really remember what's going on. OH RIGHT she ran away like a drama queen.

I hadn't been back since the morning after Jared had left and Jeb had set me free. It seemed to me that while I lived and Jared was in the caves, this must be where I belonged. ARGH she's just so...WHINY and submissive and...refer to the adjectives I used from thesaurus.com in a previous chapter. FIGHT for what you want Wanderer! YOU BELONG THERE AS MUCH AS PEDOBEAR DOES. BTW, the more I write "Pedobear" the more it doesn't look or sound like a word anymore. Pedobear. Pedobear. It's so WEIRD.

Now she's wandering through the tunnels and she found a bunch of boxes. Maybe she's at my Baba Magera's house. Baba Magera used to line her ceiling with egg cartons for some reason. I have three memories of Baba Magera: she used to warm up marshmallows in the microwave for me, she had this box I used to sleep in (it sounds like I was abused, but it was the funnest box EVER) and those egg cartons.

First, I realized that I was surrounded by food. Not just rough bread and weak onion soup,
but food. Somewhere in this stack, there could be peanut butter. Chocolate chip cookies. Potato chips. Cheetos. When did Britney Spears take over the first person POV? Anyway, Wanderer wants to steal food but then she feels guilty for stealing their food. Oh for God's sake. JUST TAKE THE FRIGGEN FOOD. I don't want to hear about your self-loathing and self-sacrificing.

Melanie and Wanderer are deciding what to do now. Jamie is more important than staying alive, apparently. They don't know whether to give themselves up to Pedobear or let Ian and Jeb protect them. Or to escape, but that is vetoed immediately. I JUST WANT HER TO FIGHT BACK. IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK? I want her to stop skulking around like a Morlock and to stand up to Pedobear and Kyle and say that she has just as much right to stay alive as they do. I want her to act like a normal person. I want her to grow some cojones. I want her to get a backbone. I want and X-Files/The Host crossover so Scully can kick some ass.

Go down fighting,she affirmed grimly. I'm so sure you're going to go down fighting. You haven't fought YET. Melanie only speaks like, every fifty pages or so.

So Jamie appears and he's going to stay with Wanderer. Something is going on but Jamie won't tell her.

Remember when Wanderer mentioned some secret that they want that hadn't been mentioned all previous and hasn't since? I wonder if that's going to ever become a plot point again. Or if Smeyer just kind of forgot about it.

Pedobear's coming to find Jamie. I wish someone would kill him. I hate him. Now Pedobear's freaking out and telling Jamie to get away from Wanderer. I think if Melanie and Pedobear actually end up together at the end, I'm going to be pissed. I really really don't like Pedobear and I want vultures to eat his testicles.

Oh gross: I didn't want or need what else happened–the way his familiar smell
assaulted my senses, the way the contours of his chest felt under my hands. For fuck's sake. HE HATES YOU. HE WANTS TO KILL YOU. YOU DON'T LOVE HIM. I think if someone wanted to kill me and I was remotely attracted to them before, that would kill any attraction. Honestly. If someone didn't hide their hatred for me, I would start to hate them too. I WOULDN'T KEEP BLINDLY LOVING THEM. It's supposed to be all romantic but it just creeps me out, seriously.

There's like a sweet fight scene. Well not that sweet, since neither Pedobear nor Wanderer get their legs broken. Holy SHIT. Pedobear just broke Jamie's nose! NOT SO FULL OF BRAVADO NOW, ARE YOU PEDOBEAR?

“You aren't the man I thought you were,” Jamie whispered. Doesn't that sound like something a betrayed girlfriend would say?

Her heart ached after the child, even as she longed for me to return my eyes to the man. I gave her what she wanted. STOP BEING IN LOVE WITH HIM. HE WANTS TO KILL YOU AND HE HATES YOU AND HE'S INTOLERANT AND STUPID AND ARGHASDFKHASLDFGKJDSF97867SADFJDF

I shook my head slowly. Jamie and Jared should not be fighting. I was causing them so much turmoil and unhappiness. It's NOT YOUR FAULT. It's Pedobear's fault that he freaked out and his Jamie. NOT YOUR FAULT. Wanderer is like, full of self loathing and l;kasfhkjdfslkjdsfk. It's Pedobear's fault that he's an idiot. Not yours. I don't want to take Wanderer's side but COME ON.

So whatever damage I was doing to their relationship, it was probably not irreparable. I need to throw something.